This is me too. This is me. Exact at this moment. Its what made me get on my reddit app right now. The name thing hurts. It hurts me soo bad. Im almost in tears typing this. I've lost everything amidst the gains I have. I pushed thru university and got my degree. I have a solid job/career. But I live in sadness. I left my high school sweetheart because of my stutter. That was many years ago. The only thing that gives me anguish is my name. I try my best to not meet new people at parties. Meeting people terrorizes me. Damn, its tough to have a 2 syllable name with a vowel in the beginning. Quick excerpt about my journey.... I have correlated my stutter with the act of fapping/pornography. I didn't have trouble with a stutter before the age of 17. I started fapping and watching porn at the age of 17. Around that same era I noticed weird blocks, prolongations when I needed to say something. Then, I realized something was off when I got my name asked and I opened my mouth and nothing came out. P.S. - I'm not saying all stuttering is correlated with masturbation/porn.