I highly recommend the book Life on Delay by John Hendrickson [https://www.amazon.com/Life-Delay-Making-Peace-Stutter/dp/0593319133](https://www.amazon.com/Life-Delay-Making-Peace-Stutter/dp/0593319133) You are being way too hard on yourself and your parents. You are as normal as all of us are. You are you! Might want to consider changing therapists.