I fully understand you and I mean this I know people are socially anxious but why are you afraid to go out to say a word, they will not drown if you say something about the fact that your voice is completely normal why all this anxiety or how to call it, I understand that it's not that easy for someone it can not be but when you talk and listen completely okay why the hell do you give yourself so much anxiety as if they will kill you or where do I know.