I agree with cicadas\_stammering! Circumlocution is an omnipresent thing. The thought before every sentence, every word I say: Can I say it that way? Will I stutter this? How can I replace it to prevent stuttering? And far to often the decision to rather not talk instead potentially stuttering. ​ Not to long ago, I have had a conversation with a teacher who told me I should raise my hand more often "because after all my stuttering wouldn't even be that noticable". These comments are very common to me. I feel like they indicate the missunderstanding in society that for many stutterers the audible and visible symptons aren't the only problems. Not rarely, stuttering impacts the person's emotions immensely. This ranges from fear all the way to suicidal thoughts (as you can easily find on reddit). So if I decide not to raise my hand it's not my stutter that made me determine, it's my emotions. Put simpler: it's not the fact that I may stutter, it's the fear of stuttering or shame after I had stuttered. ​ A less abstract example: In school the worst things for me were/are reading and presenting. The earlier is usually solved quickly: My teacher would pick me for reading, I would stutter (more or less) tremendoulsy, the teacher would intervene in the middle of the paragraph, ask someone else to read and never pick me again. ("What do stutterers hate? Reading the written word." - Joe Biden; AIS Gala 2016) The later though, is something that I had to do like everybody else. Standing in front of thirty people and stuttering for ten or fifteen minutes straight on can break someone inside. Consequently the nights before were always a real struggle. I just couldn't hold my tears anymore and so I pushed my face into my pillow so that my parents wouldn't hear me crying. Sometimes they heared me nonetheless and came to my door to ask whether I was fine. I never told them the truth. In fact, to this day I never told anyone that I know what I really feel. ​ It is these ups and downs that seem to be not only present in the stuttering itself, but also in the emotional state of the concerned. Often they can be caused by certain events (e.g. presentation). Additionally, the shame and feeling of helplessness that makes you not thematize these issues. Inner monologues could be a great way to shine light on these emotions, I think. ​ I hope you found some inspiration from my insides. Good luck with your book!