Why is my speech so much worse with my parents
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Why is my speech so much worse with my parents I hung out with my friends yesterday and hardly stuttered saying whatever i felt like(maybe it was the pressure to not stutter due some girls being there as well) but as soon as i got home and try to ask my dad something i just block and can barely construct what I wanna say to him while still knowing exactly what I wanna say.But it's weird because theres times in the car when I'm talking to him and I'm as fluent as a normal person.Maybe its the accumulated thought of stuttering that got built up over the years that just stuck in my brain so whenever I talk to him in the house it triggers stuttering memories which educes stuttering more? My stutter is mostly made up of blocks considering I know what i wanna say but can't and OMG It's controlling my god damn life. Theres times when I'm at school where there is girls I've been talking too in some of my classes and when I see them in the hallway I'M TOO SCARED I'M GONNA STUTTER IN FRONT OF THEM SO I JUST END UP IGNORING THEM AND LOOKING THE OTHER WAY AND I FEEL LIKE THEY THINK OF ME AS SOME ASSHOLE WHEN IM REALLY NOT IT'S JUST THIS BUILT OF FEAR THAT I MIGHT STUTTER IF I TALK.I know this could be a confidence issue as well but you know high school and I just don't wanna be known as that kid who stutters so i would rather just give off the vibe that I'm anti social,then blocking my speech and just looking like an idiot(sorry of this offends anyone It's just how i feel) ughh I just wanted to get this off my mind sorry for this rant.