postr/StutterApril 3, 2018

Awful few weeks - I'm done!!

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Awful few weeks - I'm done!! So I have officially had enough with my stammer. I've had it since I was 4 yrs old and I had it under control until I started my new job, 4 months ago. For years, I have been able to swap words with ease, allowing me to work as a trainer to wide audiences without major issues. However, since I started this different job, which I love, I stammer so much more than I ever have. I don't know whether it's a combination of nerves related to wanting to do well, or lack of sleep, or stress or any combination but I am getting to a point where I just want to go hide under a rock. Things I've stammered on, lately: * Saying my dog's name . * Saying my own name on the phone - over and over again . * Asking for the marmalade that I ordered that they failed to give me, in a local coffee shop and bursting into tears (I don't cry) when my mum kept telling me to go ask for it. * Telling basic stories about my day . * Talking to my SO about important things and not being able to communicate what I wanted . I just don't know what to do. Normally it gets better as I get more relaxed but it doesn't seem to be getting better. I wanted to see if there were speech therapy classes for adults but they all seem to be geared towards children. Thank you for reading.

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Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityEmotional Experience

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Feared Words & NamesAvoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentStress & Fight/FlightShame & EmbarrassmentFrustration & Anger