i’m simply Tired

i’m simply Tired i’m in my 30s and have been stuttering my whole life. been through it all, ignorant parents, speech therapy, bullying... i know i don’t have to tell y’all what it’s like. talking simply isn’t worth it for me most of the time. my stutter is physically exhausting. even if i don’t fight it and try to relax through it, the fact of the matter is that stuttering makes talking longer and takes more breath. i get completely winded trying to keep up with normal conversation. i have a hard time talking to people, not because i’m scared of their judgement, but because speaking is incredibly difficult and exhausting for me. i get that calling a stutter a disability is a touchy subject, and stuttering looks and sounds different from person to person. but in cases like mine, i think the disability label is apt.