Hey. I know this probably won't mean much -- I'm a random person who's never seen this sub and got here from browsing /r/new -- but I hope as you grow older you can eventually find confidence through your experience struggling with this. You have so many life experiences left to have that will benefit from the struggles you've already had. It may not seem like it now, but every moment of anxiousness and frustration will help you find your footing more readily in future encounters. I'm glad you have someone in your life who cares about you.