postr/StutterJanuary 18, 2022

Rant/ nerves for college interview tm

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Rant/ nerves for college interview tm I joined this subreddit a couple mins ago hello all anyways I have a college interview tm, and the plan is to just go ahead and tell my alumni interviewer I have a stutter at the beginning so it’s not jarring later but then it got me thinking I have practiced my responses so much but I genuinely don’t even know why. Having a stutter pisses me off and I mean genuinely enrages me sometimes because no matter how hard I practice my words and no matter how much I try, I can’t control it. Hours of prep before a presentation are ruined bc I physically cannot speak fluently Not to be a Debbie downer but it’s like what is even the point in practicing what I want to say when every single time in my life it has always gone to shit I envy people who can speak fluently SO MUCH Ik there’s no point in hoping bc it’s juvenile but I still wish every night I’ll wake up without a stutter. Yes, i admit I have issues w acceptance and I’d rather hide my stutter than come to terms w it but it’s just so embarrassing Sigh I just hope it goes well

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Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

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Anticipating StutteringFrustration & AngerAnxiety & Social JudgmentIdentity & Self-Perception