You just described my whole life. I also only stutter mildy, periodically moderate, but always masked. Still I refuse to life with such dread to the utmost. The only reason to bother holding on is to investigate for a complete cure. I bet you might be interested in reading the following research work: [https://www.ucsf.edu/news/2019/04/414296/synthetic-speech-generated-brain-recordings](https://www.ucsf.edu/news/2019/04/414296/synthetic-speech-generated-brain-recordings)