Don´t give up buddy. Stand up and try again. I like what you said that you can´t blame them for finding it funny. I think the same way. Recently I asked my self: *If I were not a stutter and I see a person stuttering: ¿Would I laugh?* Probably yes. Because I don´t really know all the struggle that person is feeling. For me he is just doing some funny faces and he is not talking for whatever reason. We laugh at people faling, fat people, transgender people, you name it. I know it´s kind a fuck up but that is human nature. I´m sure we all had a big laugh about someone else defect´s. The important thing is to no take that personally. He is not laughing about us but the situation. And if he is in deed laughing about us, he is doing so because he thinks is funny. Not because we are inferior or anything like that. Maybe laugh about ourself will take some pressure off and make us stutter less.