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Did I make a wrong decision? 32 M here. First, let me just say how great it feels to come to this forum, even just to lurk around. I have been stuttering since childhood. My stuttering is a bit inconsistent with periods when it would take someone a long time to discover I stutter but other times its hard to get through a sentence. I have a stutter where i block. A few months ago I was going through a rough phase and decided to switch jobs. I decided to get out of my comfort zone and apply for a job in a new country! I dread telephonic interviews but i got through those. I was sort of in a good zone where i did not let my stutter bother me too much. I did stutter through all the interviews but got the job :). But here is where it gets fucked up. I was mentally prepared to begin a new life on a new high. I thought I would be proud of myself after making it to where I was. But after moving to this new country, my stutter has gone really down hill. Its to a point where I don't want to leave my house. I can't speak in team stand-ups, I constantly try to avoid meetings and I substitute words to a point that its just embarrassing. I dunno if I am intimidated by my new surroundings or what. It just makes me feel like a failure and that maybe I should have just stayed back home.