I never been so depressed but when i entered the adulthood every thing changed and just I gave up for trying to socialize because i feel so ashamed of myself like i can't talk to another human bean, how is that possible people do that their entire life but i just can't and this destroyed me, now i am always depressed without energy. I remembered when i was a kid i didn't care at all if i was stutter or not but now this is a big issue to me, i feel so ashamed of my self that every day i think about giving up. It's been probably 3 days without talking to anyone if i need to speak to somebody i just write in some notepad and show to them because its way more easier. i just want to be normal, have friends, be able to speak on the fucking phone without the people hung up on me. ​ I tired of people saying "just accepted yourself as a stutter" and then what? I accepted myself but this won't change shit.