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I can't do this anymore I'm 16 years old. Been stuttering since I was 9, I want to say. Recently got even worse. I don't usually make venting posts like this, or even on this sub, but I can't do this anymore. I am fucking ashamed to use my words, I have so much to say. I mean, imagine that, I am literally scared of talking. The thing that sucks is that if I did have this fucking stutter, I'd have it really nice. The problem with my stutter, is that it's rather unpredictable. I know that my name, the sounds AL, MO, MA ALWAYS get me, but the worst part is I can predict it a few words in advance and there's nothing I can do but change my menu order to something I know I'll be able to say, lie about my name at Starbucks, and I don't want to live like this anymore. being 16 really doesn't help either. I never get taken seriously, when I often have legit things to say. First impressions are tough, and make me look stupid. The very few times I've done weed (do not judge, please), the stutter just flies away, but I will not rely on drugs to help me speak like a normal person. At least not at the age of 16 for fucks sake. My parents have offered me speech therapy, and are more than helpful, I love them to death. Both of my parents had it as kids - my dad could never say Rs, and my mom was made fun of by her family for it (whole other story there), but their's went away. I have that feeling mine is not going away, and I have a giant fucking life to look forward to with this shit. Help me, anything. ​ Edits: typed this fast, excuse any grammar or spelling. thanks.