No, you're completely right, I'm really embarrassed about my stutter and avoid talking about it or confronting it at all costs. If I see someone on tv with a stutter or someone makes fun of stuttering in any way, I get really upset and just shut down for a while. I went to a speech therapist when I was younger, but my family, unfortunately in this situation, was very religious and thought it wasn't working and that I just needed to have faith or something and I would be healed. So nobody really talked about it and it was never addressed. I'm nervous to say the least about visiting a speech therapist just because that in itself would involve arranging an appointment, possibly talking on the phone, saying my name, ect, all things I try to avoid at all costs. Not to mention it would be centred entirely around my speaking which is like a personal nightmare. :/ so, you sort of hit the nail on the head, I definitely have not accepted my stutter.