I feel this so hard. I've been there so many times. I'm mostly a covert stutterer which means I'm constantly trying to find other words for the word I can't say. But sometimes there are no other words. I remember once I called my dad at work and had to ask for him...and I couldn't say his name. I kept laughing and pretending like I just couldn't think of it. I'm his *daughter*. The other guy thought I was on drugs. Humiliating. Looking back, it would have been so much easier to say, 'I have a stutter, give me a second' -- but I wasn't at a place in my life where I could do that. I was so ashamed of not being able to speak fluently, as if it were my fault. But it's not my fault, and it's not your fault either. Stuttering is not a personal flaw. Hang in there. You are not a loser. You're a valuable person and how fluent you are does not define you.