i feel the exact same way, every day at random times i have a breakdown getting furious at myself because i cant say something right and this happens constantly, and constantly, and constantly, AND CONSTANTLY. I GET SO FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF BECAUSE OF EVERY WORD I STUTTER ON, AND THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON SINCE SEPTEMBER. IVE BEEN DEALING WITH THIS CRAP FOR 4 GOING ON 5 MONTHS. NOW IN JANURARY MY STUTTERING IS GETTING WORSE. I CANT EVEN HAVE A SIMPLE CONVERSATION WITH SOMEONE, I CANT EVEN ORDER FOOD WITHOUT SOUNDING LIKE IM BEATING BOXING, I CANT EVEN SAY ONE SIMPLE FUCKING WORD. IVE HAD ENOUGH. I SOMETIMES SAY I WANT TO GO BACK TO A CERTAIN YEAR BECAUSE I LOOK AT SOMETHING THAT GIVES ME NOSTALGIA, BUT NOW, I WANT TO GO BACK TO 2018, BECAUSE ATLEAST IN 2018, I WAS ABLE TO SAY WORDS CORRECTLY WITHOUT TRYING TO SOUND LIKE IM BEATBOXING, I WAS ABLE TO ORDER FOOD WITHOUT EVEN SAYING A SIMPLE SENTENCE. THE FIRST MONTH INTO 2022 AND SO FAR IT HASNT BEEN PROMISING.