Exactly the predicament i’ve been in. it’s been tough because I used to feel like it made life less stressful but now I just get paranoid anxious and dissociate when I smoke. But yeah it affects everyone differently. wish i didn’t get so wrapped up in my own head when smoking anymore though. I need to take better care of my mind before I start to smoke again. Used to make me happy but it became an emotional crutch after awhile.