I relate to this so much. I acheived quite a lot in my life despite my stutter. I've had meaningful romantic relationships. I've been told by women that I'm handsome. I have loyal friends who love me, relevant experience in my dream field... But I still keep beating myself up. I'm my own worst enemy, it's always been the case. I'm mainly reminded of my worth by other people's acceptance of my stutter, and even if I tell myself that I'm capable and worthy of love and success, there's always this voice within denying it. Rejecting the idea. An endless battle... I wish I could just be free.