Man I feel you, when I sit in class and I feel like I can really contribute to the conversation I just know that I'm going to stutter and trying to say the things that I want just seem like it won't be worth it. sometimes when I watch movies I look at the actors speaking perfectly fluently and I'm in my room trying to repeat what they said to see if it will come out smoothly. it's really exhausting thinking about stutter 24/7 I feel like I could be a completely different person without it but at the end of the day, it is what it is brother. And let me ask you this would you be okay to lose your arms/legs/eyes but you won't stutter anymore my therapist used to ask me this and each time I said I wouldnt do it. Think about what would you do and think carefully.