Gotta say, warehouse jobs pay $20-$25/hr in the southern US. No speaking to anyone. That’s decent money, easy-ish and may offer overtime also. And you got a car to get there. I did it making $14/hr in 2014, and I lived alone. However, it sounds like your depressed. It’ll either get worse or better. And we all know what worse means. If you have anyone that loves you, try to dig yourself out of this pit for them.