postr/StutterOctober 2, 2020

I’m stuck

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I’m stuck I’m a graduate with a good degree and I need a job ASAP. However, the only work experience I’ve had is at a restaurant I worked at when I was 17 - which I got let go from (had crippling anxiety, depression at the time and pretty sure my stuttering contributed to being let go) so I’m terrified. Only two friends of mine know I got fired, my family don’t even know. My group of uni friends who I spend my days with these days don’t know. I’m just so scared of working and I don’t know, being vulnerable to others. I live with my group of friends and I feel like they’re always judging me for having little work experience. They’re probably not but ugh. I’m so scared. I’ve come to terms with my stuttering recently but the prospect of it stifling a chance to live my life the way I want to is scaring the fuck out of me. Fear of being fired again is palpable. I feel so alone. I don’t know what to do. I’ve just started to come out of my depression and feel happy again and I’d like to think I’m strong enough to put myself out there and if it doesn’t work out then I’d be able deal with the consequences. But I know that’s easier said than done. Any advice? Stuttering sucks, and non stutterers just don’t get it whatsoever :(

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityEmotional ExperienceSchool & Work

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentStress & Fight/FlightSadness & HopelessnessHelplessness & AgencyEmployment & Career

Codes (3)

socializing_one_on_oneemotional_stateperceived_judgment