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Appreciation I just wanted to take a moment to appreciate how far I've come and everyone that has helped me. I remember being in my room half a year ago, lying in bed hurting myself before University started because i just could not talk to people. I was insecure and wouldve done anything to stop exsting. I had no one but my girlfriend and even talking to her made me insecure sometimes because of how easy it was for her to express herself. All i did was go to the gym or stay in my room doing nothing. Going out and talking to people seemed like too big of a battle to fight. Ever since then, I've realised I've come so far. I'm more confident when i talk to people, I'm a little less anxious to order food and i just care less about my stutter in general. The more i care the worse my stutter is. Ive known that my whole life but i couldn't do anything about it. I forced myself to participate in this election in my university. I had to give a speech in front of the entire class and i did good. I've given two more speeches after that as a requirement for my course and i feel like i did better than most of the class. Ofcourse i still have bad days where i can't get out a sentence but I've come to accept that as how things are now and i can't do anything about it. You never realise how much progress you've made cause you keep raising the bar. My girlfriend, who's the purest soul I've ever met, has helped me through all of this. I couldn't have been here without her. I'm also grateful to this community. It made me feel like there are others like me who understand and feel the same way. The thing that has helped me the most is just going out and putting myself out there. Now i know that's easier said than done but it helped me desensitise myself. There's stil hope out there guys so don't give up on yourself.