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Fuck me if I care about employing tricks to make people enjoy talking to me. I'm the main event brav. But yes. First thing is you're already positioning yourself as needing to compensate in order to be an equal mindset-wise. And that blinds you to the fact no one is perfect and has their flaws and might be compensating in their own ways. Look outwards and be the one to accomodate others - you become more comfortable as a result. Second thing is to openly embrace your life journey, hobbies, interests. Never shy away from sharing and talking about what you love. It could be the most mundane thing but it's the twinkle and excitement in your eyes that gives it life. Everyone is trying to play it cool and fears judgement, but you risk embarrassing yourself unapologetically. That creates an air of ease with everyone else and might motivate them to show their own goofier vulnerable side. Third is to joke around as per what you find funny yourself, so that even if you're met in frowns you've already entertained your main audience - you. Ultimately, give your past self his due. How many past selves suffered from stuttering? Are you willing to erase big parts of yourself just to be received a certain way throughout social interaction? They will never know the extent of your suffering so it's only logical that they don't get a say in it judgement-wise. You color your experience. I used to feel the same you do. Today I might spontaneously share my poems with strangers. Or whatever. I know I am more than my stutter and such I experience the world and people. Subsequently, they experience me as more than my stutter.