Ugh I guess I'm the oldest here 40.. I to have a moderate stutter. Often times I'm fine but it can sneak up on me. Especially if you ask my name. You can both accept it and try to overcome it at the same time. It sounds like you almost enjoy punishing your self and think that hating yourself is the only way to overcome this issue. But I assure you it is not, and may hinder progress. It is my belief we are not our brains or our body. But these are tools we have to reach out into this 3d realm. Like almost everyone something is wrong and not perfect with our bodies. But working towards improving that flaw can make us better even if we never fully fix it, but seriously thanks for putting in so much effort!