I'm starting to become bitter about my stutter.

I'm starting to become bitter about my stutter. Hey there everyone, My name's Kevin and I've been a lifelong stutterer. Growing up I never really took issue with my stutter because it felt more covert I suppose than what I've been going through for the past 2 years. These last 2 years I've been stuttering on essentially every word or every sentence at least. It's awful. I used to not care at all and it seemed my stutter was manageable but now it's uncontrollable and it destroys me mentally. I have no idea how to cope with it honestly, and trying to find speech therapists is such a pain in the butt, especially because my insurance told me 3 or so years ago that they wouldn't help cover the costs. I just kinda feel like I'm up against a brick wall and I can't even fathom trying to climb over it. Does anyone else feel the same? It's dreadful.