Hey buddy, I know what you're going through. I'm sure there's so many stutterers that come to a point once they get into the real world where they really reflect on their stutter. Some are able to not let it slow them down and some are having a lot of trouble accepting what comes with it. I'm still trying to accept it and I'm 31 but I think there's light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to keep going because what other choice do we have? Work on your mindset because that's key.