I feel like there's a lot of ingrained self loathing for many of us. I could be wrong, maybe the majority are cool with their stutters? Personally, I feel like I would have had a massively different outlook on my speech had there been a "better" approach to therapy when I was a kid. Instead of being taught tools to use and how to accept it, I was taught that if I didn't use these tools and speak fluently, I wasn't worth listening to. My mum was even told that if I didn't use "the wave", then she should ignore me until I used that specific technique and spoke fluently. She stuck with it for a day and quickly stopped. I'm now in my thirties and still struggle with the negative thoughts about it. It's also made me unsure as to whether or not I'd date another stutterer...but more for the fact that I have zero confidence speaking in public or making phone calls. 😅 Regardless, your own feelings are valid. Sometimes, it's just a very long road towards acceptance. Eventually, you'll become more accepting of your stutter and it won't seem so bad... there will be better days and yeah, there will be some bad ones but whatever. You're going to be okay.