This was heart-breaking to read, please know that we are out here for you ❤️It can feel like you are the only one, because you may not know many others who stutter, but trust me there are tons of us who know exactly what you are going through. If you start thinking that you might do something to harm yourself or even k*ll yourself, please reach out right away to someone who can help you hold on for just a little longer. Do you have someone like that? Also I don’t know if this will help at all, but I really do believe that we have the struggles that we do for a reason, it’s not just for nothing. At the end of the day we are all human and we all want to be loved, and you deserved to be seen and loved for who you are. Stuttering is not your fault, it doesn’t make you a lesser person than anyone else.