I never thought I was gonna get a girl either. For reals. Besides my stutter I get extremely nervous around girls. Like you see guys get nervous in movies around hot chicks, but never see that crap in real life. That is me. I do not act is cliche is the movies or anything though. I met my girl on the chat line 1 on 1 talking for awhile. She dissed me at first but she was always online on the msn messenger and i just kept on talking to her when I got on. She always kept the conversation going and was always friendly and interested. Most girls judge if you cannot keep them stimulated and stuff. They move on to the funny charming guy. She is cute to me but not real attractive. I am not either though I do not think and we fit each other great. She never had a boyfriend in high school. The next time I seen her I was kinda nervous and not quite comfortable but we just kept on talking and she finally became the easiest person to talk to in my life. I could talk to her better than my family and the couple friends I hung out with. She was someone that finally took my side and understands me and thinks the same way I do, or takes my side. I always seen these chicks with these other type nerdy guys, they may not have a stutter. I was thinking why can't I find a girl like that that loves me and gives me that special attention. Been with my girl for 15 years now. I stutter around her sometimes but she does not care and I do not get anxious. She is the easiest person to talk to and keeps me motivated and responsible. Two kids with her and they do not stutter. My family does not stutter either. I think I got it cause my mom was drinking when she was pregnant and my dad used to do drugs. Messed me up maybe. ​ I have the problem of debating or conflict as well. I think it is cause I cannot think as fast as them. If I act myself I will get tarded and I will not come off as professional. Gotta be cool, calm, and collect. Some people can act any way though as long as they are witty. I just try to stay in my lane and cross my Ts and dot my Is. Been working so far and been employed 5 years at my job. Just try to be friendly and helpful can go a long way. Sometimes there will be an ahole that gives me problems. I just try to maintain and choose my battles. Work is politics and a struggle. I work to do my job and provide for my family. That is most important so I gotta be responsible and put on a face sometimes. It is not so bad though cause most of the people I work with are overall friendly and as adults all have some degree of insight and can probably see my struggles as well as everyones and try to get along and make the best of it. Actually, online like sites such as youtube and twitter can be the worst. Some of them are so infatuated with themselves and judge so hard are the ones that can tick me off too. Do not let people take your energy and just ignore em. I call people that try to bring you down to build themselves up energy vampires through competition or whatever means they do. Just let you know that you are not alone and I feel this way too. Hope you find a nice girl that accepts you and you find a connection with!