Yeah, I think about it on days where it feels like too much. Sometimes i'll have day's where I physically can't get a single word out unless i try to really force it out. So much so that I feel exhausted after just a conversation. Other times i'm able to suppress it more and I wonder why I get so worked up about it. On bad day's, it helps me to look at things from the 3rd person and think about how far in life i 've come already with this stutter and how much of a 'fighter' it takes to deal with a stutter day to day. to throw it all away and leave my family because of my fluency is just stupid.