I understand how you feel but don’t give up on yourself everyday you wake up is a new day to improve yourself little by little ..your life compared to how difficult other people have it in this world is the ultimate blessing ..there’s so many people that have been & that’s currently going through the worst scenarios possible that a humans can experience.. there’s thousands upon thousands of people that would happily swap their life with yours in a heartbeat because their life is that horrible..your life can be wayyy worse than what it is now ..you have multiple opportunities a day to become better & improve yourself..not everybody has that.