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My stutter is somehow getting worse For context, I (24F) have had my stutter since first or second grade, and for a huge chunk of those 15-ish years, I've been in and out of weekly speech therapy. My stutter has always been a little worse than other peoples', but in recent years it's been a LOT worse. Through middle and high school, I used to be able to speak at home with my family without much issue and only stuttered in public places like school. But now? I can barely speak at all. I struggle to get through basic words I used to never have trouble with when I'm at home, and when I'm out in public I'm borderline non-verbal, it's *that* bad. I've done everything you're "supposed" to do, I've gone to speech therapy and tried my best to use the techniques they thought in my everyday speech, I've tried to improve my confidence with exposure therapy by forcing myself into situations where I had to speak. But nothing. I almost feel like I just need to give up and let myself become fully non-verbal and sign up for an ASL class, because it feels like the only option I have left. I can't talk to the few friends I have. I just got fired from my job a week ago because I had such a bad episode that I couldn't attend a mandatory training day. The fall semester starts tomorrow and the looming dread of introductions and icebreakers is gonna crush me. ... I don't have any questions or anything, I just needed to get all this out, I have nobody IRL to talk to about it, nobody ever understands.