MrBroDudeMann, What a trial your life has been. I'm so sorry you've had to endure such abuse. I stuttered from age 5(female) and was bullied for stuttering as well as being overweight. School was a nightmare, high school a little better, but the university was easier because of the maturity of my fellow students. Please have hope. Things can change. This group knows exactly how you feel about stuttering because we've each been through the same embarrassment of not being able to express ourselves, and suffering the same ridicule for our differences. Just hang on and take every opportunity to improve, even if you’re only able to improve your ability to withstand the condition. If you’re able to engage in speech therapy or psychological therapy don't dismiss that chance. The trauma of your multiple physical challenges, plus the bullying, has taken an emotional toll. Don't give up on the discovery of new and better ways to treat stuttering. I'm fully recovered from stuttering but it took until I was 70! The recent advancements in treatment will allow you new hope. Go to Youtube for videos about what others have done to reduce or recover from their stuttering. Engage on this site where you’ll be understood. Best of luck, Sue