Sending you hugs! I know how hard this can be... But it's nothing for us to feel ashamed about, we did not do anything wrong or anything on purpose.. Anxiety truly truly sucks! It can make you freeze up and sometimes the words just don't even come out... Your story reminded me of last year when I was out shopping with my mum. I wanted to order milk tea with some specific topping and my God... I have stuttered this bad only on a few instances... I couldn't even get the word tea out. I was just standing there looking at the lady, while the word was stuck. I felt so ashamed... And to make matters worse, the lady had this grossed out expression on her face... It made me tear up after I was done with the order... Took me sometime to get over it... Told myself the same thing, there's nothing for me to be embarrassed about. I did nothing wrong. I feel you!