Okay I have time to give a proper response here. I do appreciate what you have said, what all of you have said so far. So if understand your first point correctly, it sounds like your mindset is whatever you do, you are going to get things done. And that way of thinking outweighs the desire to be seen as "normal" right? I actually heard something similar from a previous therapist. Though she wasn't as good as the one I have now, that one point did stick. She gave the example of making a phone call as I think we can relate that making phone calls is difficult. But she said that even if I have the most trouble ever, even if I am blocking so hard, having constant repetitions, even if it takes me 20 minutes to complete that call, she says at the end of the day only one thing matters: YOU MADE THAT CALL! You didn't drown, you asked the question, received an answer and closed out the call. Mission Accomplished. In fact during one of my recent therapy sessions, the therapist I have now tasked me with making a phone call to a local retail store and asking them if they have an item in stock. It was tough but I made the call. She said to give myself a pat on the back. I did at the time, but then the next day rolls around and I'm terrified of the phone again. I guess I need more than one victory before I can truly conquer the fear of the phone. Regarding your point of setting small goals for myself, I think this is something I can try to give a shot at. I have difficulty with "m" sounds and if I can I will try to say an easier word. I suppose what I could try to do is pick one time throughout the day where if an "m" is anticipated, just say it. Then I guess gradually add 2 times or 3 times and so forth. Thanks, this is something I will try. Regarding your point of being the one to control how I deal with the stutter, my therapist says self-disclosure is a big thing. I told her that is quite a big step and I don't think I'm ready to disclose my stutter to new people yet. As you mentioned above, I think before I do that, I need to set those small goals for myself. I really appreciate this detailed post. I will give all of these things some thought.