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My stuttering journey Hi everyone i would like to share my stuttering experience with you it might give hope or just be a good read. I was born and raised in Morocco so we do speak arabic, french and other languages, i can say now that i was blessed since i was able to switch from arabic to french or french to arabic everytime i feel a block or anticipate a stuttering, keep in mind that arabic uses a lot of sounds coming from the throat so when you block its like you are about to throw up😁. I also believe that stuttering raised my self awareness as a child, society will bully you and people will make fun of you it was hard for me as a child to get bullied at school or at home. Later on i started to bully myself so i became numb to bullies, at the meantime i was big for my age so they made fun of me when i was not looking which i was fine with. I naturally developped interest to scientific fields , i loved math, physics because for me those are the languages where i am able to express myself without stuttering. Fast forward, high school in morocco i was the fun person to be around, i had an original way of talking with a rich vocabulary to replace words with less stuttering ones, my french teachers always loved me because i used a lot of very formal words not necessarily my age at that time. I immigrated to the US at the age of 20, with no english however i learned english quickly and i used the fact that i am an immigrant to explain my blockings ( stuff like mmm i am translating in my head from arabic or french to english) so people instead of naturally either making fun or thinking that something is wrong with me end up being impressed. Fast forward , i married my sweetheart from highschool morocco she joined me we both did college from the beginning ( since our education was in french and arabic) she graduated as a nurse, i will graduate on december as an electrical engineer, we have a stutter free ( thank god) 6 year old boy. I always avoided presentation in class but the one i couldnt avoid i blocked a lot on them. I am currently interning in a big utility company, i had a phone interview yesterday where i blocked and couldnt say what i really meant to say but fuck it. My idea has always been that my stutter is a part of me of my personality and it s not going away, it is frustrating but when i look back i was able to reach every goal i set in my life. I have friends , a family and soon my degree .So it is up to us to either quit on our dreams and goals since we have a legitimate disadvantage and no one can blame us for quitting or compensate that disadvantage by being good at other things.