commentr/StutterJanuary 7, 2017

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You can definitely work in journalism, my friend! My only skills in school were in English, and at your age I took physics and chemistry in high school instead of advanced English purely because I didn't want to speak in front of the class. I never thought I could work in a speaking job either. I was lucky that someone who knew me from my days in little league remembered I was into writing and offered me a 2-month internship at a small newspaper when I was 19. I took it and have been in journalism since. I've worked at several newspapers across Canada and now finally have an editor position, where I work as a one-man show in a small town, doing all the reporting and all the everything, which I enjoy. The start was very hard. I remember taking an hour trying to record my voicemail greeting for my cell phone without stuttering, and I couldn't do it, and I was crying like crazy. My mom drove with me up to where the job was, and I asked her to run me over with the car before my first day of work. I was terrified and a mess. So I'm not going to tell you it's going to be easy. But what I learned is no one in the adult world cares if you stutter. Stuttering has never impeded my work, except by my own doing if I am too scared to make a phone call or ask a question. The stuttering itself has no impact. If anything, I think it has helped me professionally. People open up to me very easily and feel comfortable because of my stutter. A lot of people get intimidated by journalists, but it's hard to be intimidated by the stuttering puppy dog approach I take. Plus, people respect you a lot for putting yourself out there. People notice and clearly know you're doing something that they might think they'd be too scared to do. Stuttering can have its advantages in life. It doesn't get easier overnight but it does get easier. Every time you push yourself, it gets a tiny bit easier. You get used to the embarrassment, to the point it's not embarrassing anymore. That was how I found freedom. But talking on the phone during an interview in front of everyone in my office, lots of extreme sweating and rough days there. Lots of days I felt like I had been through a war by the end. Lots of rough moments. But the truth is everyone goes through challenges in life and tough times, and stutterers aren't unique in that regard. I still stutter as bad as I ever have. Some days I stutter less and some days I struggle to put a few words together. 99.999% of people don't say a thing and give me all the time in the world to get my question out, even if I'm asking something challenging them, such as if I'm talking to a politician on a controversial subject. I've had literally a handful of rude interactions out of tens of thousands. Those are more amusing than anything. In fact, with my growing confidence, I started to enjoy the adversarial aspect the job sometimes takes, and I quite liked getting into it on the phone with communications officers who weren't giving me the goods. If you want to know the severity of my stutter, I've made a YT channel here, and I talk about journalism sometimes and plan to more: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCttXHV0qtGOmUNGKJZj_Vlg Love to talk more if you want to know anything else or just to talk. You can definitely do it! The only question is if you'll let yourself. You have to put yourself out there. It's hard but it's the only way anything gets done in the world. Good luck!

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School & WorkIdentity & DisabilityCommunity & SupportEmotional Experience

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Employment & CareerAuthenticity vs. MaskingPersonal StoriesIdentity & Self-PerceptionHope & Motivation

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