You are right that my mental health is the bigger problem. In the past my stuttering wasn't always fun, but I could live with it. Now it has gotten so much worse because I care so much and I isolated myself. But it's so difficult not to care. I've been to multiple speech therapies in my life and 1 of them helped a little only. However I feel like when you go to speech therapy you have start it with a positive mindset and be motivated. Your last paragraph really touches me and it's really true. Not easy but true. I'm going to think about where I can start. Thank you for taking the time to help me. I really appreciate it.