Hi. Thanks for your post. You're not alone. I think most of us have felt that way. Some still do. Rather than type it all out, please look up the story I posted about a week ago. If you've been working on your speech unsuccessfully, that shows that you have the ability to do the work. I am finding that is the biggest hurdle people seem to have. It was mine. So you're already a step ahead of where I was. So take a look at that post, and then if you're up for it, i'd be interested in hearing what type of work you've been doing to improve your speech. Again, thanks for posting and sharing your situation.