You are still in the worst ages. I cannot imagine growing up stuttering and all people with cameras and social media shaming now too. It won’t get better until you say “fuck it.” You may have to say “fuck you” to some people too (nicely or rudely that’s up to you). I said fuck it too late. And let stuttering fuck me. It will be hard to change that for a very long time. I’m stuck in a job check to check because I settled for what I settled for. I should have said fuck you to so many people and things a long time ago. You can do this. You will do this. You will be king/queen, fuck it the choice is yours!!