I cant live my life how I want to because of my stutter

I cant live my life how I want to because of my stutter So I (m20) Have been stuttering since I was a child. I remember it's starting probably around 7 years old, And ever since there has been ups And Downs with it. But right now I've been having a big problem recently with my stutter. It's affecting how I live my life a lot and it's making me feel a bit down about myself. I've been trying way harder Recently to seek out ways the people have been able to stop their stutter or at least become alot more fluent With their speech, And I've been trying ideas that I see, but nothing's really helping. I just don't know what I should do Because since graduating from high school two years ago, I have friends That I'll go do stuff with occasionally but I haven't been too social. I'm scared to go out And do fun stuff and try to make friends and just live life normally. The reason For that being my stutter, But I want to change that. It's been hard though, because recently my stutter is at one of its worst points that I can remember it being. I can't hardly talk to friends or family or people in public without getting a block where my mouth is just frozen, open almost and I look crazy Not being able to breathe because I'm Having a block. Or if it's not that I just have repetitions that no matter what I cannot stop, no matter what I try. I would really appreciate if you all have any advice or ideas on what has helped you all with your blocks or repetitions. I just want to start living life and quit Worrying about my stutter And quit letting it rule what I do and make me scared of living life like everybody else. P.s. Speech therapy isn't an option for me. It cost too much.