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I'm cured. It still sounds weird typing that. The physical act of stuttering is 100% gone, but I'm still working through what it has done to me mentally. I posted about my experience a couple months ago. I check this subreddit maybe once a week or once every other week.I speculate as time goes on, I won't check it all, or maybe very infrequently. I'm 37, and just recovered at 36. I doubt many people who have recovered will check out this subreddit. They don't need a support. When I was a stutterer, I felt like so much energy was focused on how I was talking. If a conversation was about challenging topics, I might not be fully engaged in what is being said because I'd focus so much on trying to say sounds well. Speech was never fluid. My brain had all the answers, but it was at war with my mouth, tongue, and lungs on how to speak. I spent so much energy monitoring how my speech sounded, instead of thinking about content of what I was saying. It was exhausting. Using strategies was exhausting. One strategy might allow me to sound more fluent for awhile, but then it'd stop working, so I'd try a different strategy. Nothing was natural. Now, speaking is 100% fluent, but I don't have the confidence of someone who never stuttered. My energy level now is through the roof. I'm still adjusting to being the person I am now. I feel my growth was stunted, and it's just now beginning to catch up. I'm optimistic about the future, but sad for the many opportunities lost.