yeah because thats how I feel, im not like that on dates obviously. how can a person NOT feel negative or bitter, when they try SOOOO hard to just be happy, I am NOT a bad person, I have so much love in my heart and all I want is to live a normal life and be happy, but it doesn't matter how much I try, this curse holds me back. I am just being HONEST, I can lie to myself for years and years and years, but in reality, this life is UNFAIR, no one should ever deserve to go through this amount of pain and a lifetime of loneliness, all because my brain wont allow me to speak.