Hi there. I know how you feel and I am sorry. There is NowaMowa in Poland. You live only once so I would offer you this long term vision: \- save enough money to be able to do NowaMowa (if you dont live in Poland, still not a big deal). \- NowaMowa is a good intensive speech therapy. I know many people who got rid of the stutter almost completely. On the other hand, some were not sucessfull. But as I said, this could be your chance and hope. ​ You can contact David Tomashewski on Facebook, he is the head of the therapy. Good luck :)