Salam friend. Please don’t think that way. I care, we all care about you and you can work daily on this. Please don’t give up. Praying for you. Sorry if this translation is bad. And I don’t know if you’re Muslim, but if you are this may give you some comfort, Prophet Musa had a stutter too. Allah(SWT) gave you the same trial he gave a beloved prophet! رَبِّ اشْرَحْ لِي صَدْرِي. وَيَسِّرْ لِي أَمْرِي. وَاحْلُلْ عُقْدَةً مِّن لِّسَانِي . يَفْقَهُوا قَوْلِي” And if that doesn’t cheer you up, please consider speech therapy and keep trying until you find what helps you. These people judging you have no idea what it’s like to be you, but it just takes one person who is kind who will give you a chance . You are so strong for going through this!