It takes a while to get use to it all, you’re still young and figuring it out, I’m 24 and still want to punch a wall when I get a really bad block. But I’m use to it for the most part, the laughing, smiles, and all that jazz doesn’t bother me, I still have my time where I rant to my fiancé just cause I have to let the anger. So you might never get fully use to it but you’ll learn to live with your stutter in a comfortable way, it just takes time, don’t rush it. It’ll happen when I happens