You've gotta get over your fear of talking and what others think about you. I know it's hard, but stressing out about your stutter does nothing to help you at all. It actually makes things so much worse. And I know you probably want everyone you talk to to like and respect you, but the reality is, that's just not going to happen. There probably will be an asshole out there who will think you're a loser just because of the way you talk. But anyone worth your time will look past your speech and see you for who you really are. Any good person would be heartwarmed to know your story and the struggles you've gone through in life thanks to this stupid speech impediment.