I feel the same way. I completely isolated myself for about two years when i turned 18, dropped out of school and barely spoke two anyone for two years. It made my stutter much worse and i completely forgot how to be social. I later went back to high school and got my grades. But i feel like i have completely missed out on all the fun since then. I have tried a few different jobs and gone to university but i just feel miserable whatever i choose to do. I have now decided to do some solo traveling for a year and try to figure out what i want to educate myself to.