I totally get what you are saying, btw i am also from India, i also feel that i stop myself sometimes from conversations or initiating one, i think it's maybe because we don't want to go through the pain and embarrassment and all that mental slap that we experienced when stuttering, It's not like that i can speak or i am able to, it's just sometimes i don't want to go through the pain, because i am tired of this, Living with stutter is hard man, i hope to overcome it or just at the end only option is to accept it and live with it